I'm currently went through a ______ (put anything you want, not going to say it) that devastated me to my core, that left me feeling broken and shattered. Everything is disrupted and i've to admit that i'm kind of losing myself now. I've forgotten who am i, how happy i am, how i organize myself, what did i enjoyed doing in my life, etc before all these things happened to me. It's a scary thing seriously, 26 years old and confused sounds really not good to me. So i decided to do things that i've never done before, in order for me to find myself back and also perhaps .. a new hobby!
So, i tried playing pool.
Before i commenting anything, just to be clear that i'm actually not a sports person, outdoor or indoor. Soo not me, but .. kata nak try new things kan? Awkward but whatever. I've been always wanted to try play pool or snooker (still can't differentiate them) since my degree's day but no one willing to bring me or teach me. So, got the opportunity when my friend asked whether i want to play pool for suka suka.
Pros: Tak berpeluh, still can wear pretty shirt and go shopping after the game. Lol.
Cons: The environment thought -_-'. Full of men, everywhere.
So, i went for marathon.
Ok fine, my first marathon is just for fun. Basicly we just walk through along the 5km and get coloured, thats all. Haha.
Pro: I love it. Lots of people to mingle around. Fresh air.
Cons: Need to wake up soo early on the weekend phuahaha, most of the marathon are pricey, seriusly.
So, i tried something more adventurous .. hiking. Heck!
i was regretting my decision after we went down from Broga Hill. Mengigil lutut bak hang! But still, i give it a try one more time, and this time we went for not so adventurous trail .. Bukit Kembara. I dont know whether i still can call it as hiking, but meh, i'm sweating .. so it's a hiking for me.
Pros: Its FREEEE! Fresh air (again), release tension somemore, no pressure to finish up fast or not.
Cons: Might be dangerous if go alone
Then, i tried to play golf.
Pros: Its a good sports for me since i dont have to use much of my knee's strength, and i can go alone
Cons: Mahaaaaaaaal and i dont have the golf equipments T_T.
So, lastly i tried wall climbing.
Meh, i thought this was nothing since i loved wall climbing when i was a kid. But didn't realise how big my butt now heh .. cant even reach to the top without screaming.
Pros: Hmm. i cant find any hahaha.
Cons: Not good for my knee, for my leg, for my hand, for my blablabla .. ok, i dont want to do this anymore. Period.
So, did i found my new hobby? Not yet but i did enjoyed myself trying new things that i never done before.. Did i found myself back? Still far from it, but hey its going to takes time, isnt it? There is no shortcut for this. I plan to keep searching for the new hobby preferably something that i can do by myself without disturbing my friends and cost me less, and hope it will help the healing process too, Insya Allah.
But hey, i started blogging again. Good sign, perhaps.
Might also start to read lots of books again, Amirah. Lol.
